JAR OF HEART

Jar Of Hearts

I know I can’t take one more step towards you
Cause all that’s waiting is regret
And don’t you know I’m not your ghost anymore?
You lost the love
I loved the most

And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin’ round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You’re gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don’t come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you’re asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You’re gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don’t come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you’re back
You don’t get to get me back

Who do you think you are?
Runnin’ round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You’re gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don’t come back for me
Don’t come back at all

And who do you think you are?
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You’re gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don’t come back for me
Don’t come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Proses Kehidupan

yeah hidup butuh proses,

dan proses kedewasan itu akan terlewati seiting berjalannya waktu...
slow but sure, dengan sendirinya kita akan menjalani proses berjalannya waktu,
kehidupan akan semakin tua, dan waktu akan mengarahkan jalan hidup kita sbg mnusia,
apakah berjalan sesuai skenario kehendak kita atau sebaliknya,
Tugas kita sbg mnusia hnya berusaha sekuat tenaga untuk mencapai proses aktualisasi diri,
pada akhirnya hnya Allah yg memberikan takdir atas pencapaian usaha kita...
:)

my own poem

My Poem

My short story

WHEN FRIENDSHIP BECOMING LOVE

   
Angga and I had been best friends since Elementary School. I still remind the day when we first met, it was the first day of grade 1 and we were in the same class. Unintentionally I collided with his head trying to reach my pencil that had been knocked out on the floor. Fortunately, I didn’t know that he was trying to reach for it too. From that time, we got close, share lunch, talk, and became best friends. We’d hang around together as often as I’d hand around with my family. He’s also my neighbour, his house is infront of my house. He’s like my brother, a brother who I could learn to when I have problems, a brother who’s always there for me when I’m in trouble, a brother who loved me  What he didn’t know is that I’m deeply in love with him ever since the day we first met, but I realized he only thinks of me as best friends and as his sister.
    In sixth grade, everthing’s changed. We had been together for 5 years exactly, but this year is diverse. I was moving, moving far away from him. It’s like a new world for me. My deep profoundness love for him is still there, actually I don’t want to leave him. But the fact is really contrast with my expectation. My father got a new job in Palembang, so we must moved from this village. We agreed to call each other at least twice a week, send letters and emails if we have time, and stay in touch with each other. But the reality, it wouldn’t be the same, it wouldn’t be like old times, we wouldn’t see each other except in pictures, we couldn’t do anything together now. We couldn’t be there for each other, all the time anymore. We’re in different places, so far away distance between us. It happened for 4 years. We’ve lost contact.
    One day, My family had a plan to visit my old village, I was really happy to hear that. The day of the departure came, but he wasn’t in there. I tried calling his home but no one was answering it. I went to his home, but no one was in there. I got information that his family has moved to other city. I was so worried and sad that he forgot about our promises eight years ago when we were still together. I left the village with all of memories that still exist in there, I was heartbroken and thinking that maybe he had a good excuse why he moved from our memories village.
    One year had passed and still no sign and information about him. I tried calling his home every once in a while, finally there was answering from his mother, and she said, “oh, he’s not here, he got scholarships and studied abroad in the other country since two years ago, I’ll tell him you called.” And I would be so depressed. Sometimes I just think that he’s been avoiding me, but why I wondered.
    I was going of to fifth semester in my college. I hadn’t been getting any emails or letters from him, or hadn’t been getting any at all. I tried to tell myself that, “it’s okay Ayu, he’s just busy that’s all.” However I had my doubts. What if he’s not busy at all? What if he forgot about me? What if he got a girlfriend and been to busy to talk or even stay in touch with me? A lot of what ifs’ are in my mind. I tried emailing him and writing letters but there was no reply. What if all of my what ifs’ came true? Then, maybe I should be pleased, pleased for reason that he’s happy in there. On the contrary why he didn’t tell me?
    2 years had passed and still no sign of his letters or emails or phone calls. I tried to forget him, I really tried but I can’t. I just couldn’t forget the fact that I love him.
    One month later, when I celebrated my birthday. I got a gift from him. When I opened the gift, it was a book like diary, that book was sadly addressed to me, it has no title its cover is blank. I opened it and started reading the first page.
June 18th, 2004
“This is the day I left.” I thought.
Ayu left today, she followed her family to move from this village. I’m so upset to see her leave. That’s why I didn’t go to her home to see her at all. But I tried to go realizing that I had to confess my love for her before she leaves but I was too late. I’m going to miss her so bad. All the good times and memories we had will never be forgotten. I wish I could come with her. I love her so much.
My tears started falling, I admired him. I was in awe. He made a diary for me starting with the day I left. And what mostly saddened me is the fact that he loved me too. I sacnned through pages and read the last page he had written on.
April 21st 2011
I can’t wait for Ayu to see what I had done for her. I hope she’ll like it. I just miss her so bad. I wish she was here right now in my arms holding me tight and wishing she wouldn’t be away anymore.
    I still cried when I read his diary, Suddenly a letter dropped when I closed the diary.
Dear Ayu....
If you are done reading my diary. I want you to fill out the other half of this book. I miss you so bad, Ayu. I’m sorry if I keep missing your calls. I was just to busy with work. Yeah, Ayu I’m working and study abroad here now, so I could surprise you and I promise I’ll go to Palembang someday. I can’t wait to see you soon. I’m also sorry that it took me 2 years to give this to you, it’s just that I didn’t know your address in there and I had to look for your relatives in our village to tell me your address, and about the email thing I tried to email you back, but my computer is really messed up, I ought to get the fix sometime so I could email you. I’m really sorry if you thought that I don’t care about you, I do. I really do. I love you Ayu since the day we first met, it’s just that I was too scared to confess because it might ruin our friendship and that I think that you only think of me as a brother and best friend. I love you Ayu, I love you with all my heart and I’m sacrificing everything just to be with you. 2 years later I’ll be back to Indonesia especially Palembang to meet you and confess this love directly infront of you.
For now, let we focus with our study, do and get the best, trust it someday the time will come to us and we’ll be together at that moment.
With love
Angga
    By the time I was done reading his letter. I cried as my teardrops fell. Actually I didn’t him to leave me alone. I want him to be here by my side comforting me. But here, I’ll be waiting for him. I am living my life through pages in the diary. I even started to write since it couldn’t hold all my memories and thoughts of him. And I will always remember him. How he had been a good friend. How he helped me through bad times. How he loved me so much. I will not forget him. He had been my inspiration of my life. He is the best of friend anyone could ever have. I love him, like my favourite song from Westlife that describe my feeling right now.
And all my love
I’m holding on forever
Reaching for the love that seem so far..
So I say a little prayer
And hope my dream will take me there
Where the skies are blue
To see you once again my love
Oversees from coast to coast
To find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green
To see you once again my love......

Kehidupan

Yeah, bicara tentang kehidupan beragam cerita yg tidak akan habis dibahas.
Satu kata untk mendeskripsikan itu semua "COMPLICATED"
Mulai dari cerita sedih, bahagia, tangis, haru, kecewa, menyenangkan,
kesuksesan dan juga kegagalan...

Kegagalan, yaa salah satu topik yg akan ku bahas kali ini.
pastinya sbg manusia seringkali mengalami hal ini.
Begitupun dengan diriku, bhkan tahun 2012 dapat dikatakan beragam kegagalanku.
Mulai dari gagalnya menjadi finalis 2 ajang bergengsi di kota Palembang.
Awalnya aku sempat down mengalami hal ini,
tapi setelah aku berpikir ulang bahwa kegagalan ini merupakan langkah awal ku menuju sukses.
Pastinya aku mampu bangkit setelah terjatuh dan terpuruk,
oleh karena itu semua aku telah belajar dari arti kehidupan khususnya yang dinamakan "PENGALAMAN"
:) Well, Life Must Go On Ayu :D

Satu Bintang

Lirik Lagu Antique Satu Bintang

Antique / Satu Bintang

C     G          Am       G    F
Kau selalu mempermainkan hatiku
C         G        Am        G      F
Hingga membuat diriku merasa tertipu
Dm        G
Kau pun harus mengerti
Dm               G
Semua cinta yang kumiliki

Reff :
C       Em
Mungkin hanya ada satu bintang
Am        G       F
Yang dapat menghiasi hatimu
Dm  A/C#m
Dan jangan pernah engkau siakan
C       Bm          G     G7
Seseorang yang ada di hatimu

C       Em
Pastikan hanya ada satu bintang
Am      G       F
Yang slalu menyinari jalanmu
Dm  A/C#m
Hingga akhirnya kau sadari
C       Bm          G     G7
Dirikulah yang ada di hatimu

Int : Am Em F Dm G

Dm        G
Kau pun harus mengerti
Dm               G
Semua cinta yang kumiliki

Saranghae I Love You

Lirik Lagu Astrid Saranghamnida (feat. Tim) [OST Saranghae, I Love You] Lyrics

Browse: / A / Astrid / SaranghamnidaMengapa engkau tega mencuri hatiku
Tanpa seijin aku lebih dulu
Memaksaku membuatku lemah tak ebrdaya
Keu dael saranghamnida
*courtesy of LirikLaguIndonesia.Net
Nappayo cham keu dae ran saram
Heo rak do opshi wae nae mam ga jyeo yo
Keu dae ttaemune nan him gyeob gye sal go man inneun de
Keu daen mo reu chanayo
Aku bahkan tak seindah
Ku tak seindah kedipan matamu
Tapi dapatkah kau berikan senyum untukku
Walau itu bukan cinta, tapi aku memohon
On jen gan han bon jeum eun to ra pwa ju gyet jyo
Oooh aku menunggumu sampai akhir
Oneul do cha ma mo tan ka seum sok han ma di
Hanya satu kata, keu dael sarang hamnida
Kemarin aku tertidur
Keu dael keu ri da cham deu ryot na pwa yo
Ketika aku terbangun air matapun jatuh
Shi rin keu dae irum gwa (lalu aku memohon)
Hot win param pun in nak so man
On jen gan han bon jeum eun to ra pwa ju gyet jyo
Oooh aku menunggumu sampai akhir
Oneul do cha ma mo tan ka seum sok han ma di
Hanya satu kata, keu dael sarang hamnida
Kali aku melihatmu lagi
Keu dae twi mo suem eul pa ra po myeo
Heu reu neun nun mul chorom so ri om neun keu mal
(bagai air mata) keu dael sarang hamnida

JENUH :(

entah apa yang aku rasakan,
aku merasa jenuh dengan segala hal.....
bosan dengan aktivitas dan segala rutinitasku :(
really ....................
jenuh dengan aktivitas full, kuliah,tugas,ngajar,
tugas dirumah,dll. fiuhhhh :'(
aku tau, aku tidak seharusnya mengeluh.
tak seharusnya males dan merasa jenuh.
tapi, apa daya sbg manusia biasa mungkin ini saatnya
aku merasakan titik jenuh tingkat akhir :(
wewwww, what should I do????
please, Ya ALLAH guide my steps
I need your helping in this earth.........
aamiin :)

• Hafalan Shalat Delisa

• oleh Nurul Fatmawati
• COVER BARU DELISA.indd
• Judul                   : Hafalan Shalat Delisa
• Penulis                : Tere-Liye
• Tahun terbit        : November 2005
• Cetakan ke         : XIII, Februari 2011
• Penerbit              : Republika
• Tebal buku          : 270 halaman
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• Siapapun pasti mengetahui bencana alam yang beberapa tahun lalu melanda Aceh. Minggu pagi, 26 Desember 2004. Menjadi salah satu bencana yang membuat seluruh dunia berduka. Gempa bumi yang disusul gelombang tsunami telah meluluhlantakkan kota Lhok Nga. Dengan latar belakang peristiwa itu Tere-Liye berhasil mengemasnya dalam novel Hafalan Shalat Delisa. Novel ringan dengan bahasa yang mudah dimengerti tapi mengandung makna sangat dalam.
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• Masih ingatkah kita kapan pertama kali belajar menghafal bacaan sholat? Masih ingatkah kita kapan pertama kali kita sholat dengan sempurna? Gerakan yang benar, bacaan yang baik, dan tentunya usaha untuk senantiasa khusyuk dari awal sampai akhir. Apakah pernah terpikir oleh kita ketika kecil dulu bagaimana sholat Rosulullah dan para sahabatnya? Adalah Delisa gadis kecil yang masih berumur 6 tahun, dengan janji hadiah kalung dan sepeda Delisa berusaha menghafal bacaan sholat dan melakukannya dengan khusyuk dan sempurna.
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• Delisa, bungsu dari empat bersaudara yang semuanya perempuan tinggal di kota Lhok Nga, Aceh. Hidup sederhana dan religius di rumahnya yang tak jauh dari bibir pantai. Umminya seorang penjahit sedangkan abinya bekerja di tanker perusahaan minyak internasional yang pulangnya hanya setiap tiga bulan sekali. Delisa dengan bantuan ketiga kakaknya –Aisyah, Zahra, Fatimah- berusaha menghafalkan bacaan sholat dan gerakannya. Meskipun pada awalnya Aisyah iri dengan hadiah sepeda dan kalung yang lebih bagus daripada miliknya, tetapi dengan tulus Aisyah malah membuatkan jembatan keledai untuk mempermudah Delisa menghafal. Kehidupan keluarga yang hangat dan saling menyayangi membuat Delisa tiba-tiba berkata “Delisa sayang ummi karena Allah” ketika usai jamaah sholat subuh, dan hal itu membuat seluruh anggota keluarga saling berpelukan dan menangis. Meskipun ternyata Delisa melakukan itu karena mengharap hadiah dari Ustadz Rahman, tetapi pernahkah kita melakukan itu?
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• Gadis kecil yang cantik dan cerdas ini sungguh akan membuat kita malu. Ketika mengaji dengan Ustadz Rahman dia mendapatkan pelajaran tentang khusyuknya sholat Rasulullah dan sahabatnya. Sehingga dia pun berkeinginan untuk sholat seperti para sahabat Rosulullah. Minggu pagi 26 Desember 2004, Delisa dan umminya dengan semangat berangkat ke sekolah untuk ujian praktik sholat di hadapan ibu guru Nur. Ujian ini menjadi amat penting bagi Delisa dan teman-temannya, apalagi ibu guru Nur juga akan memberikan piagam kelulusan bagi yang lancar dan benar bacaannya.
• Tetapi nun jauh di tengah lautan, bumi bergolak menciptakan rengkahan yang memicu gempa bumi dan gelombang tsunami. Lingkungan rumah dan sekolah Delisa berada tidak jauh dari pantai. Saat itu adalah giliran Delisa maju untuk melaksanakan ujian praktik sholat. Delisa bertekad untuk sholat dengan sempurna, dengan bacaan yang benar dan tidak terbolak-balik seperti sebelumnya. Delisa berusaha khusyuk seperti sholatnya sahabat Rosulullah. Meskipun gempa terjadi dan membuat para orang tua panik, meskipun tangan Delisa berdarah terkena pecahan vas bunga yang jatuh karena gempa. Delisa tetap melanjutkan sholatnya tanpa berhenti sedikit pun. Ibu guru Nur pun juga tetap berada di samping Delisa demi melihat dan menyimak bacaan sholat Delisa. Tetapi bacaan sholat Delisa harus terhenti karena gelombang tsunami yang menghantam hingga membuat Delisa pingsan dan terseret arus terpisah dari ummi dan saudara-saudaranya.
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• Ada banyak makna dalam novel ini. Dicetak hingga 13 kali dan akan segera difilmkan, membuat novel Hafalan Shalat Delisa layak untuk dibaca semua kalangan. Beberapa kejadian dalam novel ini mengambil latar belakang luar negeri dan melibatkan orang-orang warga negara asing. Akan lebih menarik apabila percakapannya juga ditulis dalam bahasa Inggris atau sesuai bahasa negara yang dilibatkan. Tentunya untuk mempermudah anak-anak yang membaca perlu ditambahkan catatan kaki tentang arti percakapan tersebut.
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• Delisa memberikan pelajaran pada kita bagaimana seharusnya meniatkan ibadah kita. Delisa  mengajarkan keikhlasan menerima takdir Allah SWT. Delisa juga mengajarkan arti cinta yang sesungguhnya. Delisa, gadis kecil 6 tahun menjadi lebih dewasa oleh suatu peristiwa yang mungkin hanya sepintas lalu bagi kita.